Kim Porter Felt Betrayed by Diddy

Kim Porter has revealed more details about her decade long on-again, off-again relationship with Sean "Diddy" Combs.

The rude awakening came late last year while Porter was expecting the couple's twin daughters, D'Lila Star and Jessie James, when a friend told her that Combs had a baby with another woman.

"I wasn't even coming from the place of who, what, why," Porter tells Essence magazine. "I laid low and did what women do: I did my background work, collected information [about the other woman]. But I wasn't even on it like that because I was pregnant, and what was bubbling inside me was a blessing from God. I couldn't let my energy be on that. I didn't have time for any drama, trauma and bull----."

The woman in question is Sarah Chapman who had a baby five months before the twins arrived.

Says Porter, "It's not an original script. He's not the first man who's cheated. He's not the first man who's had a baby outside of his relationship. He's not the originator of this. But at this point in my life – I have girls now – it's a different program."

Porter's biggest regret is that Diddy didn't tell her about the child himself. "I would have preferred to find out from him because that's a man," she says. "I know it's hard for anyone to say to their significant other, 'I've gotten into some s--- and I got a baby on the way.' But men do get caught up in things; I'm not naive to that. Still, there's a right and a wrong way to handle it. Because, most of all, we were friends. Even if I couldn't have understood it as a woman, I would have understood it as a friend." (Diddy did ultimately tell her about the child after their twins were born.)

"He told me that he may have gotten himself into a situation and he may have fathered another child outside the relationship and I said, 'Really? Well, I already knew. I'm glad you decided to be a man,' " says Porter. "I was like, 'Dude, this is so wack I can't even respect you right now.' And for me, once the respect is gone, I'm not even listening to you."

Although the baby was a contributing factor, Porter says she left did because the relationship was no longer working for her.

"As Black women we sacrifice," Porter says. "We stand by our man, through thick and thin, through whatever. But if you feel like, 'Maybe I am getting the short end of the stick,' that's when a change has to take place.

"I'm a Southern girl, and my home life is numero uno," she says. "I wasn't waking up feeling happy. There's no other way for me to articulate it, other than a feeling. I just wasn't feeling it, that's why I had to leave."

Source: Essence Magazine via People