Nicole Kidman Breaks Her Silence

In an uncommonly open interview in the October issue of Vanity Fair, Nicole Kidman opens up about her marriages to Tom Cruise and Keith Urban as she looks to a bright future.

Some of the highlights from the interview highlights that hits stands tomorrow:

On miscarrying a baby with ex-husband Tom Cruise and the path to adoption:
“From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies. And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that’s when it came that we would adopt Bella.”

On being single again following her divorce:
“You're in a hotel and you're like, 'Okay, well, I'm sitting in this big suite with an Oscar and I still don't have a life - what is wrong with me? Who do I jump on the bed with, and celebrate with, and order pancakes with?’”


On meeting husband Keith Urban:
“I would probably say that two very lonely people managed to meet at a time when they could open themselves to each other. We were a mixture of frightened and brave.”

On stay in rehab Urban's following their marriage last year:
"I've learned an enormous amount having a relationship with someone who is in recovery. I'm more than willing to walk it with him…We were in a very, very, very bad, painful place and have managed to step through it, and I hope that gives some people some hope who may be in the same place. And that's enough said. Anything else is overindulgent and unnecessary right now."

On her long-distance relationship while Urban is on tour:
"Two weeks is still too long for us (to be apart). We like one week. We start to hurt after seven days."

On having kids with Urban in the future:
"I'm yearning to have one. I think I would be very sad if I wasn't able to have a baby. Keith knows I want one, and he has been getting there slowly."

On her kids, Isabella, 14, and Connor, 12 with ex Tom Cruise:
"I called Tom (from Australia) and said, 'Guess what? Bella wants blue hair.' I go with my daughter to the hair salon to get it dyed blue, and I look at her and I think, My God, it's cool!"

Source: Vanity Fair via US Weekly